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People usually don't give a fuck about what you feel or think. They goddamn don't care. And you too are quite used to that. But what about people who are yours hurt you more than they think they do. It fucking feels like a stab inside your heart. Of course, they too are going through something, you know that. But hey, you too are going through a hell lot of things that you deal with every goddamn day. What someone's dealing with now has happened quite a long time ago with you.

Do I need to be calm with myself? Yes I do. Not denying the fact. But some expression just happened to show up when nothing was intended and even your sister gets a wrong impression, that kills. It fucking hurts.

From now on, no show and tell. Only keeping calm. Getting up early in the morning, etc,etc.
Not even expressing too much. I have to train myself for that.